been going through and flow from home to the hospital..grandpa is admitted there...

and next week is gonnA be a hardcore training for me

basketball and volleybal...

MSSD is around the corner and homeworks are gonna pile up like twin tower..

im stressing on everything and anything that come in the way

i don't know how to overcome it..

and i don't have the confidence to do it at all...

ALL I ASK FOR IS A BREAK FROM ALL THIS AND JUST LIE THERE AND D>E

FAIL

this few days has been a down pour for me..

i have no idea who an i anymore...

i failed myself ,my dream and me..

i don't know how to move on from here..

i don't know how to move on from here..

i need a break from all this and time is never gonna wait for me..

:-(

back from leo camp.....3D2N....

i lost my voice but the camp was great..

2nd night was the best..

BBQ NIGHT

but its the test for patient...

took like 3 hour to bbq 6 freaking chicken....

but when the chicken reach ur mouth

OMG>>its like heaven man.

this is the chicken fron heaven.....

credits to sher mun,ben,kern ling and jia chien

my chef-s for that night..hehe

the next day played volley with the team and guess what?

sue li is able to over hand..

but more practice is needed people

the saddest thing during this holiday was..

on friday...boyfee had friendly with cahaya at court 2

and he sprain his foot....

dam sad..

today his dad brought him to hulu langat to see the doctor..

now he have a big bandage on his poor leg

and he may need to use a tongkat when he goes to school

i will be there for you dear...supporting you all the way...

will be having 2nd TDC meeting and i wish everything goes well..

.....

last night movie was good....

wanted to met up with the BOYFEE..

but too bad he was not in time...

had a long talk with him about stuff and everything is alrite now.

today i went to the bengkel kereta in the early morning..

waited for like 2hours before the class started...

then when under the sun during the class...

came home...bath for jesper and did some add math...

walk to boyfee on the phone awhile and he told me a good news that make my tears roll down..

he got 72 for english...

a subject he passed one time before...

im very proud of you.

will be going for leo camp tomorrow onwards..

gonna lost my voice peeps..

<3>

relaxation??

just came back from meeting for leo leadership camp which is this thursday...

gonna have so so much fun u know..

after that went to book a date for my amali driving class so that my L licence can be out asap....

so i will be going for the 3 hour class tomorrow and will be going for the next class next friday...

i hope i can make it for the parking*close eye and hide*

will be going out tonight with the brothers and friends...

i think we are watching remember me....

so ya..finally some relaxation during holiday.....

after that..

its gonna be a serious time for me..

<3>

didnt really get a good night sleep last night.........*sigh*

better luck next time

it was black last night when i was halk way doing my undang test..

what a luck...hehe...

so beg my parent to bring us out to somewhere so that i can do my undang book.

went there till 12 plus...

brother and cousin watch football match

and

it was sad night..boyfee lost his wallet which has his

IC,LICENCE AND ALL MY PICTURE in it

so he went and did a police report and gonna redo his driving test to get his licence.....

and look what i got..

woke up early morning with a msg receive from boyfee.....

pull myself downstair and do my undang test practice...

and well well well..

I PAST PEOPLE!!!!

went da pao at ss14 after that and

saw boyfee when fetching my brother after his basketball training...

will be going for my next course this week....

went home and played with JESPER

took a bath for him...

and real

gonna be busy by then...

leo leadership camp....and more more more...

****

hey readers,

will be going for my undng test now...

i really hope i can past people..

*its really freaking me out*

there's a first time for everything

first time webcam with boyfee at night...

missing him so much...

busy busy day

woke up early and called ching and the gang to confirm about our lunch date.

woke the brother up and went to pick ching and went to pyramid...

had subway for lunch and rush to temple for our 1st TDC meeting...

before i forget

HEY PEEPS!!!

TDC12 IS BACK!!!!

after meeting

went home and took a short nap....

woke up and went for dinner with the family..

mua gonna take my undang test tomorrow so

*cross my fingers*

hope that i pass and faster get my licence.

how

to

make

a

decision???

.......

i cant sleep right now..

having so many things going through my head i just really don't know what to do...

i have no idea who am i gonna be and what am i..

i been so busy with life that i can just miss those small thing that means so much to others..

i just wish that there was some book on life and i can just flip into pages and solve the problems...

i really don't know what to do anymore...

im lost and i need to find the map quickly before i drop into the black hole of man eating things

chant and cheer

GO GREEN

ITS CLEAN

ITS CHEERIE

AND ITS HEALTY

CLEAN LAND

CLEAN AIR

AND PEOPLE LOVE TO STARE

this is the chant which was going on in my head for the whole day..

5 SIGMA cheer group won 1st in the moral competition chant n cheer.

wai kynn+john+alvin w+darsheen+hui xiang

=

shea wen+huey yann+poh ming+*mua*

was in it...

we had so much fun..

we only took one day to prepare the whole cheer...

it was totally cool and interesting

when we were performing

i see the expression on the judges faces...

it was...WOW!!!

haha

thank for every one that cheer for us...

ming came over to sleepover last night..

we chat for the whole night

and we found so many thing in common...

was trying to finish my moral folio

LOVES HER SO MUCH!!!!

we were tired due to practice and went to bed early..

morning had butterflies in my tummy

boyfee came to school just to teman me..

he was super bored..

went for the opening ceremony and a speaker was invited

she gave a talk on SEX

OMG SEX YOU KNOW

with all the teacher around...

haha

but it was a meaningful and useful talk...

enjoy it lots...

after that we train and train...

and we went 1st and perform 1st..

and the result is that we WON 1ST!!!

super super super proud of us..

we won rm100

sijil and also moral marks....

having training tomorrow and after that tuition..

cant go take my undang test bcuz the metro lady balik kampung

and its not free to register for me..

so now i have more time to prepare for it..

*hooray*

i miss you so much and

im really sorry if i ever did anything to hurt you

its finally over..and something wonderful is rising from the mountain

well well..

march test is finally over..

all the alarms that rang and shouting

:"WAKE UP AND STUDY GIRL!!!"

at 3,4,5 in the morning is finally over

now gonna be busy with some moral chant and cheer competition..which is on friday

so to update on my life..

.

went lagoon with my aunt and cousin.

and on that sunday my family threw me a surprise party.

it was 1 week before my real birthday...

*loves them lots*

on my birthday..i was so grand that it was a holiday..*perasan*hehe

went out with the boyfee and friends..

super big ok

specially just for me

shea wen

it yann ming pau and not forgetting me

my loves

bbf

FOREVER21

the guys

dinner at BBQ PLAZA

us <3

<3

this is what he gave me for my birthday...*sweet*

thanks to the all my friend that celebrated with meXD

and you know this birthday means so much to me.

i had 3 cakes for this birthday..

there's one more cake..

but didnt took a pic of it..

GREATEST NEWS!!!!

guess who join the family on the 7th march

its so cute...

ITS JESPER!!!

grandpa birthday

this are all my cousin except for nic which is in indonesia

all four daughters and all four son in law

*one more uncle is missing*

well today after my march test..

boyfee.yann and ming come over for a movie....

and now im getting ready for my undang test..

parent bugging me to drive to tuition my own...

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY BOY!!!!<3

it was 7th march and the next day was exam...

too bad we cant celebrate our anni..

i love you so much and i cant express my love for you in words

you are my everything

and i know that we can go through ups and downs together.

I LOVE YOU LEE YUN SEM

i want you to know that.........

i want HIM to know that HE means so much to me

i want HIM to know that HE knows how to make me laugh when i am sad

i want HIM to know that HE treats me like i am suppose to be treated

i want HIM to know that HE needs to be beside me and support me

i want HIM to know that HE is lucky to have me beside me

i want HIM to know that HE is caring enough to be so loving to me

i want HIM to know that HE is being LOVE BY HER!!!*muakx*

I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!!!

life is so.............

currently blogging in granny hse now...

came and visit my dear little cousin from indonesia...

my aunt loves going to lagoon so planning to bring her and nicholas one day...

mayb will skip schoool and bring them there...

uncles is going for meeting tomorrow..

therefore it was my duty to bring my aunt and nicholas for SHOPPING tomorrow....

im currently very bored now....

im so feed up with studying..

i really feel like giving up everything and just relax..

but well big dreams needs big effort...

planning to be a VET and open a pet shop too...

really tired and stress up people..

march test is running closely and im very tired of juggling all my book ald...

how am i going to sit for SPM???

i feel like breaking down and just lie there and die....

i get so stress up till i can't study at all...

i have no idea what to do at all...

i miss you so much

you've been gone for about 5 days but

i felt like it's forever..

thank god ur coming back tomorrow...

i just need you to know that i LOVE you lots boyfee

PD!!!

how was CNY peeps??

i just came back from PD with the family..

it was a super last minute plan....

i even miss my volley training for it *soree wen*

some pic are in my bro cam..so u have to wait people

so i not remember what actually happen but...

outfit for the night

the place was nice for a photo shot

ready for the sand, people???

<3

its the lobby of the hotel

baby i miss you so much...

my phone didnt ring for the last few days

with ur absent

i feel so empty for once<3

HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINE

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

AND

HAPPY VALENTINE<3

just came back from kelantan and last minute planning to go pd tomorrow with family...

kinda lonely now.dear is in thailand with the family and no phone allows....lol

so hoping every one had a great lovey dovey CNY with the loves once...

and great news for me...

im gonna get a puppy next week from dua pek(big uncle)

*all pic will be uploaded soon*

2009

picture from last year 2009....relaxing year...<3i've been with in the same class with her since i enter SMK SU.....so cool right?

this is yann-ny with her long hair which i love so much...

but she went and chop it off

pauline dear

the jungle gang...hehe

surrounded by form 3 makes me feel old..

but i look the youngest lo..

*hehe*