beTheBEstYouCAnBe

this is who i really am..
i can be the best-est friend you and ever have..
or if you didnt something bad..
i will be your worse enemy and whenever you see me you'll cry..
i love suprises no matter how bad it is..i just love them like how much i love you
i love chocolate and sweets...i look taking pictures..craving for my own camera..
i love the bf and all my frens










i dont know why have you become like this..
although im the closest thing to you..i know everything about you..
and i know that you are the worse friend that a person can ever have..
but i still love you very much..
i cant bare to see you geting hurt.
but it seems that when i put you down on soft pillow you get up and jump down the building..
im the first one that notice you true colour..i dun mind..
but now everyone is understanding you on who the person you are..
im trying very hard to keep it inside..but when i blast out..do beware that i can even murder you with my words...
im hoping that you will change your attitude so that there will be no regrets in your life...
im always there for you no matter what you did or you are doing..
but when is it my turn for you to be there for me????

stress

got back my papers is what i didnt expect to get..
although i didnt fail any of my papers but the result is terible...
i was so stress during exam that sometimes my mind go all blank and nothing related to it seem to appear..
please dont blame wny1 for what i did.
went for the last add math tuition and i know we are gonna miss teacher truly..
gonna miss the time we go high for the last 15 min of tuition time..
cousin ask me to babysit her *baby*(puppy) this few days due to the busy life of working o holidays.
well now our topic in school is whether we are gonna work..
well in my opinion i think we should enjoy our teenage life while we can and not start our working life..i know there isn't any money for you to spend..save lo..idk why you all want to work..haix..i know its boring staying at home...im in the process now..but do exercise or read man..or even study.

i love you the way you are..
just try harder in what we had miss out

YOU ARE SO....

WHY DO YOU LIKE TO THINK IN A NEGATIVE WAY??
WHY CANT YOU THINK IN THE POSITIVE WAY??
YOU LOVE MAKING ME ANGRY HEI??
WHY DO YOU THINK THAT WAY?
I KNOW YOU ARE NOT GOOD IN STUDYING SO WHAT?
IF I MIND ABOUT THAT I'LL BE WITH OTHERS AND NOT YOU..
ITS JUST YOU I NEED...
AND WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND?
WHAT I NEED...WHAT I WANT???
PLEASE DONT DO THIS TO ME AGAIN..
I CANT TAKE THE PRESSURE..
AND WITH THAT I WILL JUST BRAKE DOWN LIKE THERE ARE NO BONES INSIDE OF ME...
JUST DO WHAT YOU DO BEST AND JUST TRY YOUR BEST IN EVERYTHING.
I KNOW THINGS WILL TURN OUT PERFECT JUST THE WAY WE LOVE IT.
JUST HOLD ON TIGHT

messyroom, messy life

this morning woke up late and ponteng school..
well no point going school to get back my result right??
hehe..i don't want my result back..
woke up ate 4 slice of bread...
super full..then watch tv..woke up and had a plan to clean my messy little room.
*took picture of how messy it is* but i cant find the nokia phone cable
after watching tv..started cleaning my room..all by myself...
its super messy man..first i clear my study table which is stack up with hundreds of books..
then i started shifting tables..bed..cupboard..alone..
ask my mom to help me carry my heavy cupboard and end up kena scolding for who knows what reason..
then after that change cupboard with brother..clean here clean there without time stopping it's ald 4. and i haven taken my lunch...
quickly went down ate hotdog and went up cleaning again...
afraid there is no place for me to sleep tonight..
there are thousand of revision book in my room..
and i just stack it up because there is not much time left...
my popiah is downstair waiting for me..
and im getting tired..clean my dressing room..clear my shirts and my bed..
went down and enjoy the popiah mommy made and some refreshing pepsi...
and now im here blogging..
got a msg from ching
asking me to go YSG because sonia and anne will be coming..
so i'll be going there later to meet up with them..
2molo plans is going temple in the afternoon..having a party there and after that rush to MPSJ for volley training..
there's been a lot of drama since i join the team..
they should change the name to volley(drama) team...
hehe.*inside joke*
im so sweaty and will be showering later..
pictures will be uploaded soon

LIVESS*CK...

why is life so unfair??
you want this you get this..
you want that you get that?
when is it my turn to get what i want??
when is it my turn that you will actually listen to what i was saying??
why is this happening to me??
i want the world to just stop and MAYB start thinking for me..
stop and just try to know how i felt for you??
i dont know what to say to you or anyone else..
i just need you there for me..
not for me to cry not for me to hold on to..
but for me to receive the love i should have gotten...

rakan muda

woke up late and called sheereen straight away to know whether she's waiting for me ald.
after that went to the bridge to fetch her.
kena nag by mommy about how stupid i am.lol*
so after that went to pn.sulo hse to go to this complex sukan in puchong
for a rakan muda program..about usahawan thingy
only 3 student choosen to go for this event.*bangga*
reach there and saw every one in their pj attire..
all four of us which is : sheereen, mun yee , shea wen and me was like<>?!@^*!@
are we suppose to wear pj attires??
what if they ask us to run..
OMGOMGOMG!!
haha
then we waited and waited and waited..
my godness..like always they followed malaysian timing..
so after that we line up..
someone start giving sppech we went like...*yawn*
haha
after that was breakfast..
"kiam siap" like haix..
it was only half full pasket of mee goreng...
and the teh tarik is so so SWEET... boleh kena diabetes.
after that we went back to the hall and play this monopoly game which is in malay..
we played that game for like 2 freaking hours..
it was super bored but we had some sweet from Pn.Gan...
well Pn.Sulo left us there at the seminar and went home...
*tsk*tsk*
after that had lunch and a very very long break..
we gossip like nobody bussiness..
hehe...we laugh and get piss at the same time..
super funny.
haha.
first time u will ver find shea wen gossiping
after that went back and get into group and it was super boring after that....
then we went back and i walk to pauline house and after that went to tuition..
well have no idea why im still going for tuition..
hehe..well exam is like OVER!!!hmm.......
oh nevermind..all my tuition ends this month so...
girl hold on for one more week...

free

EXAM ARE FINALLY OVER MAN
moral paper and also mod math was the last paper for form4 today..
after that had meeting about AGM for Y.E.P. which will be held next friday..
so YEP share holders do take note.
now im feeling so bored have nothing to do...
going out seems to be not working for me..

you mean so much to me
and even though something went wrong in this relationship
we will work together to try to figure this out
we will not end it just because this happen o mayb just because that happen
you are sick for now..but i will be praying for you to get well soon...
pray pray pray that everything will be fine..

everything will be perfect just like US <3 i will charish our love and keep it as safe as i can



with love, jesmine kuan sue li
kuansueli.popsugar.com

<3

after add math tuition went over to pauline house for slepover...
watch twilight and eat fish ball>super yummy<
after that we was tired and went to bed..
and have no idea why we got high..
then we gossip...
have some girl talks..
it was super funny..and we actually made a statement that Asian guys are not romantic...
and we promise to teach each other bf how to be romantic to us...
went to dream land about 2 plus
woke up and went to volley training..
did a lot of dana to the "vampire" in school..
got about 20plus bites...
haix.
tomorrow having moral and mod math test..
no body in the world have the mood to study....
wish us luck for the most sesat exam man...
sue will be back for more

outing

when pyramid with dear, pauline , vivi, john, justin, fei n jye...
lunch at wong kok and its the funniest lunch man...
with jye and john there..OMG!!!!!!!!
then went took pictures with the girlfriends at asia avenue...
note to self: do not safe money fr that...its not worth it..
hehe
after that went watch serogates
if i was to rate the movie..hhmmm
mayb a 7/10??
mayb it jus doesnt suit my taste...
bum into choon onn when buying tickets...
after movie when to pauline hse to lepak after that went home...
rest awhile and went to ss15 KFC for lunch...
the chicken there is terrible!!!
super dry
haix...
after that brought pauline to YSG for the 1st time...
she say she will come back again for every week...
wow...anyone want to join us???



been planning with my brother(jem) about our younger brother (jason) surprise party...
although he expected it..
but its not what he has expected from all th normal surprise we YS had done...
well jem n i plan to surprise him at Ys but its too normal..
due to the past birthday surprise that have been done there...
so we plan to bring him home after Ys then only surprise..
we trick him thinking there a surprise for him in YS..
we sang birthday song and he actually turn behind thinking there was a cake for him.
me n jem was laughing inside...haha..super funny..
and for jason super terasa..haha..
then we ask peisong to drive us home..
we n pauline change to pyjamas to look like we are goin to slep..
then we went down stairs to watch tv and wait for the others arrival.
mom help us to keep jason busy in her room...
bring everyone in silently and then called my brother down saying that our cousin baby is on skype and wanted to talk to him..
me and pauline act normal by watching tv which was block by about 30+ people...
he went to my bro room and my bro say che che looking for you..he walk to the tv and
SURPRISE!!!
he was so shy that he was half naked that he straight away ran upstairs to put a shirt on...
super funny..
after that we sang birthday song again..
eat cake.chit chat and PEI SONG if my baby hamsters died..I"LL KILL YOU!!!
after that took group pictures and they went home...
stay up late with pauline and watch i know who kill me..


woke up early in the morning and went for volley training..
came home went carefour with parents and went temple for concert rehersal..
was so so so tired and moodless..
at night went 1 utama for dinner and window shopping..
came home and straight went to bed..
woke up this morning and went to temple for audition...
and then walk to summit for lunch with adrean, marilyn, jia shua, ching, shawn and brother..
after that came home watch tv and sleep...
didnt really text the bf cause he was randomly in genting shopping with his parent...
so fun go all the way up to genting to shop.
nw my body aching...
parent went to aunty hse in raub and came back with durian for me...
yay yay..
well and im so bored after exam..and i have no idea what to do..
any plans girlfriend??

FREE!!!!

hey im back for sure..
say good bye to nerdy jesmine kuan sue li
welcome to the ordinary jesmine kuan sue li.
exam is over although moral paper is next week
and thankx to MR TAN whom forgot to set mod math paper1.
we have to delay the exam same day as moral..
well..
no biggy deal..
didnt really sleep dunring exam especially today although its the last day
i got the least sleep...
start studying freaking sej from 8p.m till 11p.m...
had a hard time going to sleep...
then woke up at 2.40a.m IN THE EARLY EARLY morning
just to continue reading sej and also some chem
not really worry of chem...hhmmm.....
went to school and thank to john he teach me a little calculation of chem..
and at the end he cant remember how to calculate.



well MR.TAN saw me and shea wen going to the toilet
stop us and tell shea wen that she got the highest for add math...
not sure whether is full paper o for paper 2 only..
well he said i did quite well to..bout 60 plus.
but teacher was giving back physic paper2
i was like u r not gonna destroy my holiday man..
bcuz most of us sigma dislike physic..
so i told teacher of its less than 50% then dont tell me..
well guess what???
SHE DIDNT TELL ME!!!
im dead...haix...
well gonna enjoy while i can..
mayb will start studying for next year soon..
mayb end of the year.


well i got a good news today from teacher this morning
saying that we have won
1st for the best product
and 3rd for the best annual report..
the prize is in term of $$ cash...
cant wait for 5 november to go get the award..

now ANYONE WANTS TO GO FOR YDC????
come come..registration is open...theme is YES IM POSSIBLE!!
camp date is 17 dec till 21 dec..and its only rm120..it will be at setiawan

tomorro going pyramid with sem pauline and the old gang...
cant wait...craving for KFC....
gonna catch a movie...
lepak like good old days....
anyone wants to join just call

well pictures will be uploaded soon...computer laggging

im so bored now and have no idea what to do..


tomorrow going to school and meet up with teacher
to discuss about the interview that we are going to attend this saturday
in AMCHAM at kl* i think*
our YEP CLUB have shart listed to win an award
so they want to interview us the B.O.D of the clubs
so wish us luck peeps



during tuition just now.. me and pauline cant concentrate at all..
thinking of after exam life...
cant wait to go shopping..boling...movies..slepovers...and most important LOGOON
haix..
thinking of who to ajak and who not to..
thinking of what to wear
thinking of everything
except exam...
lol..


what school put exam between PMR day??
haix..
after PMR we the form 4 are gonna continue with our 2more days of exam
until the cage is open free for us


well before exam..
didnt really study..
went cameron..
when to Bf place to celebrate mooncake festival...
*edmond* u suck man...stop bullying us
haha..his brothers and sisters are frenly...
on that day was also his sister birthday
HAPPY BELATED 19Th BIRTHDAY hui ru!!!
after the party the sister sent us home...
and look who i brought home??

3 CUTE LITTLE HAMSTER..
well was hoping for a puppy...oh well...
hamster is a start???hehe

you are the one

written just for you<3

having you in my life is all i ever want. u were there for me no matter what..
we will go through everything..

u'll hold my hand through out the years and never let it go.
after being with you i could not ask more.

when i am down you are the one who is there to lend me a hand...
a shoulder you will make be rise and shine

you are the only one that can make me laugh when im crying out my tears when i feel like giving up you are the one to support me and help me through it all..

although you cant help me in studies..
you will try your very best to make everything feels right...

you will try your best to even bring the rainbow down for me

being with you is my luckiest and happiest day of my life..

without you i dont even know of im still alive...
when i think of "giving up" you will try your very best to stop me...

when i could not see you.when there is something happening to us...
i cant stop my feeling and just cry and hope that you will be next to be trough it all..

i dont knw how am i ever gonna repay you.. i only have 3 words for you

I LOVE YOU <3

exams

last week have been a scary..stressing....dying exam week for us SMKSU form4 students..
all the book are everywhere..as for me..
i had cried a few...
i repeat myself A FEW buckets of tears just for this year end exam...
but luckily u were there for me..
thnkx a bunch...
now due to the PMR test my exam have to be hold on until its over..but after PMR..its back to studying for only like @$%!^*@%
2 more days of exam???!!!
haha
cant wait to be free from this
plans all planned...
.......shopping.......
.......moviesss.....
....skating......
....boling....
.....and LAGOON......hope mummy let...>.<

before exam week...
went to cameron with the family to enjoy...haix...
so relaxing and freaking cold...
ate lots of straberries and also gave my grandma a surprise birthday
since the whole family was there...
pictures on it will be downloaded soon..
cant seem to find the cable to my phone...
have u seen it???

will update more on the blog after my exams..
cya...
and dont miss me

exam week

last week have been a scary..stressing....dying exam week for us SMKSU form4 students..
all the book are everywhere..as for me..
i had cried a few...
i repeat myself A FEW buckets of tears just for this year end exam...
but luckily u were there for me..
thnkx a bunch...
now due to the PMR test my exam have to be hold on until its over..but after PMR..its back to studying for only like @$%!^*@%
2 more days of exam???!!!
haha
cant wait to be free from this
plans all planned...
.......shopping.......
.......moviesss.....
....skating......
....boling....
.....and LAGOON......hope mummy let...>.<

before exam week...
went to cameron with the family to enjoy...haix...
so relaxing and freaking cold...
ate lots of straberries and also gave my grandma a surprise birthday
since the whole family was there...
pictures on it will be downloaded soon..
cant seem to find the cable to my phone...
have u seen it???

will update more on the blog after my exams..
cya...
and dont miss me